I've always played things pretty safe; too safe, sometimes. This has led me holding on to the status quo, picking the path of least resistance, and keeping myself in a stagnant place for far too long. I've had a rough few years because of this, and in times of inner turmoil I tend to withdraw even more, consumed by fear and feeling less-than and that inner voice asking, what's the point? Basically, I completely lost my mojo.
I turned twenty-nine a few months back, and have recently decided that I am just too old for that shit. Sure, the fact that I won't have the PhD I thought I was going to end up with has been pretty tough on the old ego, but I have a lot to be proud of. It's time to move on, to let go, to wear all those lipsticks I own but have frequently been too scared to wear in public.
Inspired by Auxiliary Beauty's Lipstick Chronology, I'm going to do a series on my red lipsticks. To me, someone wearing a red lip always says charisma, confidence, self-posession -- qualities I'd like to cultivate along with my new outlook on life. And what better lipstick to start things off than Dior Addict Fluid Stick in Vie d'Enfer?
Vie d'Enfer is a medium red with blue undertones. It's fairly opaque and glossy, and so juicy on the lips. It wears for about three hours with two coats on me, which is when the shine starts to wear away, but the colour lasts a bit longer, drying down to a pretty stain -- a darkened pink on my pigmented mauve lips. I'm messy, though, and always eating and drinking, so it would probably last way longer on a less sloppy person. There is a slight tack after it "sets", but it doesn't feel sticky. It almost hugs the lips, if that makes sense, and doesn't feel like it's going to slide all over your chin. It also doesn't settle in my lip lines like some glosses can, so it's pretty flattering.
Vivre une vie d'enfer -- to live a hell of a life. (Just so you know, my sixth-form French is pretty terrible. I Googled this.) Because I'm still working on the living a hell of a life thing, I've been wearing it very lightly, blotted down so that it has a balm-y satin texture. Perfect for daytime wear, and for this slightly timid lipstick wearer, but worn layered up for full impact? Totally worthy of its name.
Products used: Benefit Porefessional, Estee Lauder Doublewear Concealer in Medium Golden, MAC Mineralize Skin Finish Natural in Medium Dark, L'Oreal Voluminous Butterfly mascara, Estee Lauder Doublewear eyeliner in Black, BYS Three Way Eyeliner, Bobbi Brown eyeshadow in Taupe on lids and as cheek contour, Dior Addict Fluid Stick in Vie d'Enfer.